Friday, February 25, 2011

< 249 > Just Like That?

I was watching this one movie Dance Flick on HBO and the actor said this line...
"So you're telling me you woke up from your bed one day and decided to waste your talent,just like that?"
                           

Stunned.And my heart replies,
"You can't be selfish and get everything/everyone you want in your life at a time. Get over with something to let something better comes to you. Hopefully. Allah knows.Have faith in Him"

Right now,I feel like part of my soul being ripped off.Seriously. All I can hold onto is 
"Maka barangsiapa yang berhijrah kepada Allah dan RasulNya,maka hijrahnya adalah kepada Allah dan RasulNya"


Friday, February 18, 2011

Siri 27 : Repentance

Assalamualaikum....I got this from my friend's blog and found it was very simple put but deeply meaningful. Something that we oversee it sometimes. I've got to admit the English used there is kinda high for me. So just take your own sweet time and try to understand this article thoroughly. Hope we will all gain something,InsyaAllah..

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Shaykh Muhammad Salih al-Munajjid

Dear brother! O slave of Allah! Allah has opened the door of repentance, so why should you not enter? "Repentance has a door whose span is the distance between East and West," says a hadith; (and in another version "its span is the distance traveled in 70 years"). "It will not be closed until the sun rises from the West."

Listen to the call of Allah: "O My slaves! You sin morning and evening and I forgive all your sins. So call on Me, I will forgive you all your sins."

Allah extends His Hands in the night to forgive the sinner of the day and extends His Hands in the day to forgive the sinner of the night. And He loves to hear excuses. So why don't you turn to Him?

How beautiful are the words of the repenting man who says: 

"I beseech You O Lord, in the name of Your honor, and (by) my ignominy that You have mercy on me. I beseech You in the name of Your Strength and my weaknesses. Your Self-sufficiency and my dependence. To you I submit my sinning, guilty forelock. You have many slaves apart from me. But I have no Master save you. There isn't any refuge but with You nor escape from You except to You. I plead You O Lord, in the manner of the pleading of a destitute, and entreat You in the manner of a broken, downtrodden man. I beseech You in the manner of a blind man in fear. This is a supplication, O Lord, from one whose head is bowed down before your Majesty, whose nose is in the dust, whose eyes are filled with tears and whose heart has submitted."

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Consider this story:

It is reported by a trustworthy man of the past that as he was passing through a street he saw the door of a house open. A woman came out with a child who was crying and pleading while she was pushing him out. She left him outside the house and slammed the door shut in his face. 

The child left the door and walked a distance. Then he stopped, looked about, began to think, and not finding any other place but his own house where he could take shelter nor anyone who would care for him as his mother would, he returned to his house dejected, sad. He found the door shut. He sat at the sill, put his cheek on the threshold and slept with tear marks on his cheeks. He was in this state when the mother opened the door. 

When she saw him in this state she could not control herself. She bent down, grabbed him to her bosom, began to kiss him and say in tears: "Oh my boy! My dear child! My very soul! Where were you? Didn't I tell you not to disobey me? Do my bidding, and don't force me to punish you, while I hate to do that." Then she carried the child back and closed the door behind her.

That is the story of a mother and a child: the story of disobedience, punishment, return, forgiveness and unbound love. But the Prophet, salla Allah u alihi wa sallam, has told us that: "Allah loves His creation more than a woman does her child." In fact, there is no comparison between the love of a mother for her child and that of Allah whose Mercy encompasses everything. Allah, azza wa jall, is immensely pleased with a man when he repents and turns to Him. And we shall never be deprived of anything by a Lord who is more pleased with the repenting man, than that man....

"..who was traveling through an arid land. 
He dismounted and took shelter under a tree seeking some rest. 
He lay there with his beast, loaded with food and water, at his side. 
But when he awoke, lo! The beast was gone! He began to search for it frantically. 
He climbed a hill but couldn't see a trace of it. He climbed another hill and still no trace of it. 
Finally, when hunger and thirst overtook him, he said, 'Let me go back to the tree, and lay down there until death overtakes me.' 
So he went back to the tree, and lay there with eyes closed - in total despair. 
And lo! As he opened his eyes and raised his head, there the beast was, right before his very eyes, with all the food and water loaded on it intact! He rushed to it and picked up its halter. 
(Can you imagine his happiness) 
But lo! Allah is happier with a man when he turns to Him seeking His forgiveness, than the man who found his beast when he had lost all hopes."

Know it, my dear brother, that true repentance of every sin also brings with it humility and devotion to Allah, and that pleading of a penitent is very dear to Allah. So that what follows after repentance is obedience of a greater degree to the extent that sometimes Satan regrets that he enticed him into that sin at all. That is why you will see that those who repent become very much changed personalities.

Allah does not abandon a man who comes to Him a penitent. Compare the situation with that of a father who used to look after his son with great love and care, providing him with the best of clothing, food and toys. Then one day the father sent him on an errand. But, as the boy was walking an enemy took hold of him, tied him and carried him away to the land of the enemies. 

There his master treated him exactly in the opposite manner. So that whenever the boy remembered his father and his treatment, his eyes swelled with tears, and the heart with pain. He was in this condition of ill-treatment at the hands of his enemies, when their caravan happened to pass by his father's place again. 

As he looked around he found his father standing nearby. He ran to him and threw himself at him crying "My father! My very father!". His master followed him and was trying to pull him away, but the boy clung to his father, refusing to let him go. What do you think of this father? Do you think he will abandon him to the enemy, refusing to take back the child? If not, then what is your opinion of the Lord whose love of His creation is greater than the love of a father for his child? 

When a slave of His runs away from his enemies, and throws himself at the threshold of His door, rolling down in dust before him, saying: "O my Lord! Have mercy upon him who has no one to show Mercy save You, no Helper save you, no refuge save You, no Savior save You, I am Your slave, in Your need, dependent on You, beggar at Your door, You are the refuge, with You is the shelter, there is refuge but with You, nor escape from You except to You" then surely the Lord is not going to turn him back empty handed.

Come along then. On to the good deeds, to virtuous living, in the company of the righteous, steering yourself safe from deviations after the right direction, and misguidance after guidance. And Allah is with you.

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Jaga diri,jaga hati,jaga solat...
{Mangalore Junction Railway Station}

Thursday, February 17, 2011

< 248 > Kaki Gunting,Tangan Sotong

Saya sebenarnya dah kembali dari bercuti Selasa yang lalu. Pukul 3 pagi sampai ke Mangalore,dan meneruskan aktiviti sebagai pelajar seperti biasa. Dan di sebelah petangnya,saya menyarung bip "C" dalam keadaan mengantuk dan bertungkus lumus bersama anak buah di padang bola jaring. Sangat bahagia punya penyokong yang bersemangat memberi sorakan sekuat besi waja lantas menyebabkan kami pun bermain mengalahkan hebatnya Proton Waja.Apakah????



Dan hasilnya???


Wohoooooooooooo!tengok sikit jari tunjuk nombor berapa tu.TOINK!Kami menang 17-13 mengalahkan juara bertahan intern/post-graduate students. 
I never knew victory can still smell this sweet despite all the sweat!Thank you,you alllllllsssssss!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

< 247 > Pelarian

Saya seorang yang sangat percayakan hubungan antara tubuh badan dan alam. Baiklah,ayat pertama tadi kedengaran sangat pelik pula. Tapi kurang lebih,begitulah yang saya cuba sampaikan.

Pantai Parangtritis,Jogjakarta pertengahan 2009

Saya percaya yang selepas suatu ketika atau suatu perkara yang menuntut penumpuan minda melangkaui gabungan penumpuan minda Detektif Conan dan Hajime Kindaichi, ataupun kerahan tenaga yang melewati batas kemampuan Son Goku dan Sailormoon R,badan akan menjadi haus dan dimamah keletihan yang amat sangat. Dan di saat ini,untuk kembali ke puncak prestasi,saya harus melarikan diri ke daerah asing,sekadar untuk mengundang sunyi pada diri. Kesunyian yang dihadiahkan oleh tempat-tempat istimewa ini bukanlah dikira dari jumlah nafas nyawa yang menderu di situ,kerana jujurnya, ramai sahaja yang seperti saya. Yang pergi mencari sunyi dalam indahnya semulajadi bumi.

Bukit Broga, hening pagi awal Januari yang lalu

Pada saya,tempat-tempat sebegini seolah-olah mempunyai satu loji janaan kuasa yang luar biasa unggulnya mengatasi loji nuklear Chenobyl dan bisa melampiaskan zarah aura dan tenaga cerapan Bima Sakti kepada apa/sesiapa sahaja yang berada dalam zonnya.Maka tidak hairanlah selepas hampir sebulan kembali ke India,saya mengambil keputusan untuk melarikan diri sebentar.


Kalau diikutkan,sekembali sahaja ke India kekuatan minda dan tubuh saya sudah diuji.Berkelana seorang diri selama 12 jam [11malam-11pagi] di Terminal Satu,Lapangan Terbang Mumbai. Dan menghadapi semester baru yang rata-rata pensyarahnya penuh dengan kejutan macam yang saya ceritakan di entri <273>. Sibuk mengendalikan kerja-kerja badan pelajar Malaysia yang mungkin dilihat enteng oleh sebahagian pihak. Jenuh bila anda tahu yang anda uruskan bukan calang-calang acara,bukan calang-calang orang,bukan calang-calang wang.Serta juga musim pertandingan sukan dan kebudayaan tahunan antara batches telahpun kembali. Ah,anda pun kenal saya bagaimana bukan?

mengagumi Pencipta Gua Trang Bulan, Tekam, Jerantut,Pahang dalam lewat malam awal 2008

Saya mahu dan harus lari sebentar mencari sunyi itu. Sunyi yang meminjamkan kekuatan dan ilham. Dan saya akan kembali dengan semangat , tenaga dan fokus yang baru. Malam ini saya pergi. Dan nanti akan saya kembali... Sebelum perlawanan akhir menentang juara bertahan minggu hadapan. Sebelum sibuk selama sebulan mengendalikan acara-acara besar dan orang besar. Sebelum berteleku sendiri menyusun langkah tari. Sebelum berlari-larian di balapan.

MAKA SEKIAN SAHAJA PENULISAN TERSOHOR AKU HARI INI. NAK PERGI BERCUTI PUN BANYAK MUKADIMAH NAK DIBERI.hahaha. AKU KE MANA? ENTAH!KALAU IKUTKAN,AKU  MAHU BERKEMAS DAN BERMALAM ATAS SAMPAN SAHAJA.IKUT SAJA KE MANA ARUS MEMBAWA AKU PERGI.BERNAS TAK IDEA?KE MUSTAHIL?

Aci redah saja!!!Lets go,babeh!!


dibuli lembut oleh ombak dan bayu Teluk Batik hujung Disember lalu

Thursday, February 10, 2011

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"You can be the sweet tooth and I can be your dentist"


"Lori gula batu tumpah dahhhhhh!"
~The Maduvan's Village~

Saturday, February 05, 2011

< 246 > Incoherent Wavelength

Rewind.
1st year Medicine,2008
Lecture on Anatomy of Ear.
Dr.A - "I don't know how much importance is this topic as per examination basis.It's more unlikely to come out in the exam since later you'll have one year to cover this subject thoroughly.So I'll just tell you some of important things and get this done fast for the sake of syllabus completion.Other than that,you'll learn more in Part 1"

Play.
Final Year (Part 1) Medicine,2011
Lecture on Ear,Nose and Throat.
Dr.B - "For these first few classes,I'll be teaching only the anatomy of ear.But I don't think there's need for that since you all have learnt it before. Instead,you'll be telling me all about it.The structures,nerves and blood supply. Easier,right? We can finish this class earlier also. So,anatomy of the ear...forgot already?"

Pause.
I mean..LONGGGG PAUSE.

Student A - I seriously don't understand

Student B *dropped jaw*

Student C - I soooo knew it!

Student D *sentenced to death*

Student E - *in denial* HAHAHAHA.That's funny!

Fast Forward.
Lets skip this one part of being a student.THE CONFUSION.It happens,sometimes.
Lets skip this one part of  being a medical student. THE CONFUSION. It happens,so many times.....

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

< 245 > Good Old Days

I was reciting the Quran after the Zuhr prayer last Sunday when I came across these familiar verses. It's from Al-Baqarah,172-173. 

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Ouch!Kid you not,I used to be a school Qariah when I was 9. Nothing spellbinding about my achievement in this field,just enough to bring home a consolation prize from district level competition that year.I then moved to new school-the school where Perak state Qariah champion,Salima Habibi studied in, Sekolah Kebangsaan Jelapang. So that's the end of my career as a Qariah, obviously because I stand short beside Salima. Both literally and practically.TOINK! But we became friends. Last time I met her was in 2002/2003 during one stage show in Ipoh. She sang with a band that time. And it didn't surprise me when she finally made it into Akademi Fantasia 4.She.seriously.can.sing.


And after that I'd only spent time learning Tilawah in a surau just near to my house. My neighbour,Kak Eda was my teacher back then. She was once among the top Perak's qariah and also been singing in any majlis kenduri kahwin in the neighbourhood. After finishing school,she continues  used to be representing Perak for 3 years[or more] in Bintang Asli Remaja and she ended up being the last woman standing in the very first season of Akademi Nasyid. 


Looking back...as the cliche goes, I do miss the good old days I had. How can time swift this fast?And how can I grow this fast? And oh, member satu dorm dekat SokSek dulu dah masuk Top 5 Anugerah Bintang Popular ni,ape kes dowhhhh?Haaaaa!SokSekian yang membaca ini ,perasan tak siapa yang aku maksudkan?

Anyway,if you're still reading this entry up till here despite my stupid English or Manglish or whatever you call it,please please please don't ask me about tarannum,makhraj and whatsoever. I forgot almost everything about them.I can only do this much as if these verses and the "song" I used for reciting them back then have been stored somewhere at the back of my head.Don't ask me how and only Allah knows why. But yes, I'm grateful for that.Alhamdulillah.

p/s: notice the noisy honks that made up the back-up vocal sound? AHAHA,like what my uncle said "Orang india ni,kalau tak bunyi hon,tayar kereta dia tak jalanlah" LOL!

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